October 18, 1999
Blessings
I am blessed because my performance went well.
I am blessed because I was able to take off work to attend the
entire festival.
I am blessed because the retiring director of the festival chose
to conduct my piece herself.
I am blessed because the pianist who participated in my piece
chose to show up, as opposed to her disappearing act for both a
previous faculty recital and the class I taught two years ago.
I am blessed because, although the beginning of the piece was
somewhat rocky (pianist chose to speed pell-mell through the opening
section), the performers settled down and ended the piece wonderfully.
I am blessed because many of the other composers congratulated
me and complimented my piece.
I am blessed because my husband was so impressed with the
performance that he took me home and made passionate love to me. (We
subsequently had to speed so as not to be late to our evening event.)
I am blessed because Dr.
Beall asked me to send him a score of
my piece so he could try to get it performed at West Virginia
University.
I am blessed because the MidAmerican Center for Contemporary
Music apparently pays the composers, and surprised me with a check
for $100, which paid for the outfit I wore to my performance, which
I was nervous about buying in the first place.
I am blessed because my thesis advisor told Dr. Beall to demand
to listen to the MIDI of my thesis, because (she told him) it was
marvelous work.
I am blessed because he kissed my cheek after he heard it.
I am blessed because he later told my advisor that it was as
good as any doctoral dissertation he's heard.
I am blessed because I had the presence of mind not to cry,
giggle, or faint when she told me that.
Protho didn't get to come up to the festival after all. When I
talked to him later, he told me that he was having one of those days
where you don't feel up to getting out of bed, much less driving to
Ohio. Fine, I told him, we'll see you some other time. (The sound
you hear is me squelching down frustration at having cleaned the
apartment for guests, and not having any guests to see it.) So
we'll have to drive to Pittsburgh sometime to visit. In the meantime,
he'll just have to settle for hearing the MP3 of the performance,
which I'll have up after I get the recording from the sound engineers.
It looks like we may be moving up our conception date! Eric's
mother called last night and told him that
Bryan and Linda are
thinking about trying to have a baby. Eric was incensed and told
her, "We're going first!" See, Bryan and Linda, although financially
much better off than we are, are not prepared for a child.
They can't even take care of their dog! They're both so extremely
wrapped up in their careers that the poor puppy spends most of her
time in a kennel, or staying with my mother-in-law. It's really
sad.
Eric is convinced that we have to give birth first, just to "show
them how it's done." I'm not opposed to a little brotherly rivalry
if it means we move closer to our goals in the process. Eric says
not this cycle, but the next will be our target. I've told him
that these things can take time, that very few people actually
achieve pregnancy on the first cycle they try, but he's convinced
that we'll be the lucky ones, because I chart my cycles for
contraception, anyway. I know that will help, but I'm also aware
of how tricky it can be to get pregnant even when you have sex at
the peak of fertility.
I guess we'll just have to wait and see!
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