November 14, 1999
Too Much Sleep
Cycle 2, Day 5
Temp: 97.6
Cervical Mucus: Spotting
Cervix: Firm, closed, low
Well, I made up for the previous
nights' lack of quality sleep by napping away most of the day. Today started
out ambitiously enough, with me getting out of bed early enough to do some last
minute fine-tuning of my thesis bibliography before church. I fully intended
to get to the library today to do some listening and score study, but nope,
it didn't happen.
After church, Eric was not feeling well; it takes him an exceptionally
long time to recover from any illness, I've noticed. Perhaps it's his sleep
apnea, and the fact that the machine he wears to sleep (like a mask that pumps
air down his throat and ensures that it stays open to breathe) keeps the
germs circulating through his respiratory system. Perhaps it's the diabetes.
Who knows? Anyway, he went to lie down in bed. After a while, I came in to
change clothes, and he had morphed into Mr. Amorous, and...well...what thesis
defense?
That was at about one. I woke up at five. It's now half-past six, and he's
finally awake again. But I'm feeling much more rested, thank you very much!
One of the great things about Eric working in manufacturing
is the holiday shutdown. The plant where he works usually shuts down completely
between Christmas and New Year's, allowing us to travel to West Virginia for
Christmas, to see his family, and then to Maryland over New Year's for mine. But
not his year. Eric just found out that he has to be back at work at four in
the bloody morning on January 1. I'm guessing that the logic in the mind
of whoever decided on this was something along the lines of, "Hm, Y2K bug. Yeah,
that could be a problem. Well, three hours of work before the plant opens
should let us fix anything that crops up."
Eric isn't impressed. Oh, well, I guess I really didn't need to see my family,
anyway... *sniff* After all, once a year is enough, isn't it?
My little brother is already giving me crap about thinking about having
children with Mom being so far away. He's trying to guilt me into moving closer,
saying that she's getting depressed about never being able to see her grandkids.
Well, I know it's an issue for her, but I can hardly expect Eric to pull
up stakes and relocate again, when it was my education that brought us here in the
first place, can I? He makes no bones about missing West Virginia, but he has
a good job here now, and he didn't complain much at all when we left our families
and friends to come here. It wouldn't be fair to ask him to move again. It's
his turn now, and I'll follow him.
Sometimes I think about this whole "holiday travel" thing and wonder what we'll
do in a few years, when we have kids of our own. I would like my children to be
able to wake up in their own home and see the gifts under their own tree. I asked
Eric what he thought, and was treated to a blank stare; apparently, he had thought
we would continue to go to West Virginia, and that our kids would just celebrate
Christmas at Grandma's house.
There's something not quite right about that, to my way of thinking. I mean,
it's one thing to open presents at your own house, then go over to Grandma's for
Christmas dinner and more presents. But to travel eight hours, sleep in Grandma's
guest room, and have to transport presents back and forth? It seems so...foreign. Not
to mention the fact that Eric's family opens all of their presents on Christmas
Eve. That's a tradition that Eric and his brother forced onto the family by virtue
of being young, impatient, and strong-willed. It's unnatural, if you ask me.
Maybe the Christmas at Grandma's thing won't be so bad, but I'm having a hard time
dealing with it. If anybody out there does something similar, please
reassure me, would you? Not that I'm giving
up trying to convince him otherwise. Perhaps refusing to decorate for the holidays,
"since we won't be home, anyway," might do the trick.
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