Sometimes

Sometimes life gets so big, and so busy, and so exhausting, from the big to the small things, ceiling to floor, that at the end of the day, sitting back and going through it all in your head seems too much. “I don’t have the energy to remember it all” you say to yourself. “I barely had enough to get through it the first time.”

Days pass like that, and weeks, and before you know it, you are going to start forgetting those moments you were too tired to recall just then but didn’t really want to forget.

I don’t want to forget.

In April, Sam and I ran two 5Ks. I need to recap those more thoroughly, and I will, but let it suffice for now to say that they had their ups and downs, and that he continues to run and plan for his triathlon next month, as well as for another 5K (Race for the Bacon!) and possibly one of the shorter Lighthouse Run distances (two or four mile).

The week after the second 5K, on May 5, I ran the Wisconsin Half-Marathon on a complete whim. I needed something to cheer me up in a huge way, make me feel strong and mentally whole again. See, the week before, our house got burglarized. Yes, again. Yes, really. This time, they kicked in the door; I was only out of the house for a few hours, but when I came back, I found the door standing open, lock smashed, and most of our electronics gone, as well as my jewelry. Needless to say, this second violation (within two years!) has us all feeling very traumatized in various ways. We’ll be moving as soon as we can; I hope that helps.

That’s one set of feelings I wouldn’t mind forgetting, actually. Somehow, I doubt I ever will.

On a better note, Sam got into the second of the two charter schools, the smaller one. We’re thrilled! Also, one of his school friends got in, too, so he’s happy he’ll be seeing at least one familiar face there. Now, to get through the rest of this year! I can’t believe how quickly it’s coming to an end; I nearly missed signing them up for their playground programs, since my brain didn’t register that it was That Time again. We’re just getting from day to day; looking ahead more than a few days into the future feels impossible. Swimming, basketball, running, church…it makes a pattern that keeps us constantly in motion.

I hope to be back with more details soon. Here, have some pictures:

Gabe as robot

Robo-Gabe

Sam's first 5K

Sam's first 5K

Empty jewelry box

Empty jewelry box

Lego time

Lego time

At the pool

At the pool

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What, I got taken in?

You mean that wasn’t my mom in London? Next, you’re going to try to tell me that wasn’t my long-lost distant uncle who died and left me 400,000 pounds, which I’ll get as soon as I reply back with my bank account and routing numbers…

*sniffle*

Eric told me you guys wouldn’t buy that I’d be naive enough to fall for it; should I be offended, then, that a few people did believe I was? :lol: I liked Gabe’s prank on Eric, honestly; he woke him up by “tearfully” confessing that he’d accidentally hit a neighbor’s car with his basketball when he was playing outside yesterday. The lingering drowsiness and plausibility of the tale had Eric going for a good ten seconds before he realized the date.

Procrastinating, now; I’ve got quarter-mile repeats to run, and I feel stubborn about it. Oh, I’ll do them, but am feeling very “grrrr,” for some reason. I think it’s the weather; so sunny outside, but that temporary teasing with warmth a couple weeks ago makes the low fifties feel chilly by comparison. Want it back. (Not much warmer – I’m picky – but Just. Exactly. Like THAT.)

Twist my arm, make me go…

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SIGNAL BOOST

IMPORTANT: I’m posting this everywhere I can, trying to reach family and family friends who read. Just got woken a little while ago by an emergency text from Mom and Dad, and now that I can’t sleep for worrying anyway…

(Note: it’s a good thing I finally got texting turned on when I got my new phone! Never needed it before, and neither have my parents much, but I guess it came in handy for them tonight!)

Mom and Dad are in England, stuck. I knew they were going on a trip soon, with Mom retiring, but I didn’t have any details, so it was a surprise to hear they were there. Well, my grandma and her sister used to do that sort of thing, take off for Scandinavia and not tell anybody, so maybe it’s not so weird. But here’s the thing: they got mugged. They’re okay, thank goodness! But…no money or passports anymore, and thus no way to get home or to pay their hotel. Mom’s flipping out, not even spelling words right (and if you know Mom, you know that’s practically unheard of).

I couldn’t get hold of Eric, who’s out, but I managed to figure out how to use Western Union to send some money their way. That should help, though I’m not sure it’ll be enough; don’t know a thing about passports, and Mom says they may need more money to replace them? She’ll text again soon, she said.

Man, this is nerve-wracking. :(

So send some thoughts their way; hopefully, we can get them home soon. And, tangentially, I bet good ol’ Myrtle Beach looks pretty sweet as a vacation spot to them at this point. Sun, golf, and no passports required. Oh, well. Didn’t get any details about why they chose England in the first place, but maybe we have family there (I got an email last week about a distant relation there who I’d never even met who left me some money – a lucky thing, under present circumstances…).

Might try to sleep now, waiting for the next message.

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Ouchie

My triceps are a little sore. Actually, a lot of tiny muscles are a little sore, though only the tiny ones, it seems. I feel perfectly normal, until I go to make some sort of movement, and then – little twinges in little places. It begins to wear. Went to what was purported to be a cardio/strength interval class yesterday, since I was feeling bored and didn’t feel like doing my regular routine; turned out to be almost entirely strength and very little cardio, other than about five minutes of “side, together, side, together” style movements at the very beginning. Oh, well.

Wondered how my shoulder would take it. Since the injury in November, it’s been steadily improving, and I hardly notice any pain at all these days unless I particularly tax it, but some of the movements yesterday were certainly more than I’ve asked of the joint in months. It feels…okay…today, but I do think I’m going to baby it and watch it for a little bit. I want strength back there, certainly, but easy (still) does it. It was primarily the overhead exercises yesterday that worried me.

Sam and I ran during Gabe’s swim yesterday, which ended up being, well, not exactly “miserable,” but not a cheerful happy time, either. Should have brought a hat along for him; his wet head after his own swimming lesson made him feel very chilled in the wind and cold air. I was in shorts, myself, but I’m used to it; he griped and moaned for almost the entire run about how his ears hurt. Mind you, his legs and lungs did fine; it was just the temperature that bothered him. So I’ll still count it as a decent run for him – just not a decent day. ;) (He had trouble with listening and working in swimming, too, so it’s likely he was having a bad day all around. He seemed confused when I brought that up, though.)

Here’s something interesting, though (and I’ll be as vague as I can, because he is definitely growing and finding some things very definitely “private” lately). Sam has never been a kid who keeps feeling locked up; he’s got as much of a poker face as I do, which is to say that neither of us should ever expect to leave Vegas richer than we arrived. (I am also not allowed to attend any high-pressure sales events; Eric told me, after witnessing me at one, that the salesman immediately zeroed in on me in particular as his “mark.”) A couple of nights ago, Sam scraped his knee slightly, and he began to freak out about it, whimpering and whining. After only a few seconds of it, though, he abruptly stopped himself. “I’m not going to whine,” he said. “[Name of girl] wouldn’t like a boy who whines.”

I really like this girl, and I’ve only met her in passing. :mrgreen:

Yes, Sam has fallen hard for a classmate, in exactly the manner I suppose I could have predicted he would from when he was a dreamy preschooler: saying their names together, making her necklaces and giving her flowers, writing her notes. For her part, she’s giggling with friends and doing the whole “group think” flirting behavior typical of the age group; messages get passed like, “[J] says that [M] says that she likes Sam and one other boy. Giggle, giggle.” I remember when I was a fifth grader, and I’d say fully half the “relationships” in our grade took place between kids who may never have spoken about it face-to-face between the two of them. Sam is…well, he’s Sam. He doesn’t do things that way. On Valentine’s Day, he bought a silk rose and handed it to her himself – in front of her friends. That takes nerve, for an eleven-year-old boy, I think.

Anyway, we like her. Apparently, she has the power, without saying a word, to stop whining. She also has the ability, without being present, to get Sam to try sushi (under my suggestion that a girl who practices Ninjitsu might well like sushi), even if he spat it back out immediately after valiantly popping it into his mouth (“For [M.]!” he cried). I just hope this all doesn’t end in a precociously broken heart and bad poetry about never finding love again. Ah, my young romantic.

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Befuddled

Is it possible to feel wiped out and yet invigorated by that exhaustion at the same time? If so, that’s where I am. My schedule is getting SO BUSY, and sometimes it feels like a deck of cards, ready to collapse if I let go of CONSTANT VIGILANCE, but it’s all good, I think. Gabe and Sam are both still swimming, and now Gabe has started playing basketball through the Y, which means one evening practice a week and a game each Saturday. Sam is running, training for his triathlon and for a 5K in a few weeks; I run with him three times a week doing that, which I can fit in during Gabe’s basketball practice and during his swimming lesson (which has been moved to just after Sam’s class ends, due to the level of protestation Gabe was giving, which was distracting for the other kids in his class; now he’s in a private lesson, and he’s doing much better), as well as on the weekend.

(Side note: I didn’t put two and two together about how tired I was, given the relatively manageable level of my own running mileage, until I realized that I’m actually doing 6-7 more miles a week on top of that with Sam. Okay, that makes more sense now.)

Sam’s doing so incredibly well, now that the weather’s turning a bit milder, and Gabe is scary in how he morphs into this Big Kid when he’s working outside our family unit. He got pegged hard in the face with the basketball during the last practice, and I watched him reel and stagger…and hold in his tears until he was “safely” away from the other kids after practice ended before letting out his cries. Nobody told him to be tough, but he felt compelled to act the role, which is so strange for me to see. I think I might have cried, honestly; it made a big smack as it hit him, and we all winced.

And then there’s church stuff (Holy Week coming up, so extra choir practice), school stuff (apparently, it’s field trip season), and lots of other little activities sprinkled in, and it’s getting harder and harder to make sure everybody is where they’re supposed to be and doing what they need to be doing, but at the same time, it’s neat to see all these things happening in their lives, isn’t it? Love seeing them make choices and grow. :)

As for me, as I said, I’m running moderate mileage, but I’m sticking to my guns about the resolution I made early in the year about working on speed. I ran another 5K this month, a couple of weeks ago, and was mildly disappointed not to have made much improvement since the Run Into the New Year; I actually finished in 25:44, which is slower – but, then the RINY 5K was on a flat course, whereas this one had a couple of big climbs and featured winds gusting near 40mph in parts. (I actually ran part of this course way back in 2008, and I was hoping I remembered the hills wrong, having been in worse shape then…my memory was, sadly, accurate.) Okay, so I’ll cut myself some slack on the time, but the part where I was disappointed is how I allowed myself to slow down so much when I began feeling tired in the middle. Unacceptable. Therefore, I’m bumping up the intensity a little with speed training. Ow, tempo runs hurt…

Like I mentioned, Sam has a 5K in a few weeks, and I’m doing it, too, of course. I’m looking forward to celebrating with him no matter how I do, myself. That’ll make up for any wind-sucking I have to do. Really, 5Ks are hard, if you do them “right.” Now I remember why I liked going longer…

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Gotta catch ‘em all

Gabe has become obsessed with Pokémon. It started with getting a couple of cards so he could admire the pictures and trade them with his friends at school. Then we happened to be in the right place at the right time (from his perspective, anyway) and come across an organized Pokémon league in session, where a couple of young kids offered to teach him how to play the game…and it was all downhill from there. He dragged Sam into it, too (Sam would probably have been happy to stick with admiring the pictures and making up his own stories to go along with the characters), and now they have binders full of cards, tins with decks ready to battle – the works.

We also have a budding devotion to league play. Unfortunately that “right place” he found was inside a mall a little over a half-hour drive away on the interstate. :roll: I mean, it’s a great little group, run by the fun young people working at the Board Game Barrister, and they’ve done a bang-up job at making the experience welcoming and positive for everybody (there’s this precocious little guy, probably a couple of years younger than Gabe, who’s been there every week we have so far, and he’s hanging in with everybody else). I love that mall, and it’s right next to an awesome coffee shop, and there’s a Trader Joe’s right there, and if it were closer, I’d have no objection at all to this. But it isn’t, so it’s sort of a commitment.

This week, though, I ran past another gaming store which is closer to our house, and hey! There was a sign in the window about a Pokémon league every weekend! Well, that’s convenient! I ran it past the kids, and they were game to try it out.

Cutting to the chase, it was…different. I could tell the moment we walked in the door that “different” was going to be the best way to describe it. For starters, the only kids I saw were hanging out around the edges of the store, playing on handheld video games; the tables were occupied by adults. Well, I say “adults,” because that was the initial impression. Can you really use that term to apply to folks who start pounding the table with their fists when the play goes against them, yelling, “Cheater! CHEATER!”

Eric asked one man a question about how things were run, and the next thing he knew, he was getting schooled by a senior citizen who can only be described as “intense.” The man CARED. Deeply. Pokémon is Serious Business, apparently. Eric nodded and disengaged as quickly as he could. I hovered on the outskirts, taking pictures of models.

Sam and Gabe played each other, while in the background, the grownups raged against each other. The guy running the event seemed unsure about how to deal with them; he tried to get them to settle down, but that simply wasn’t happening. When a few of them finished their battles (including the woman, who whined and grumped loudly about losing and missing her “goal for the day”), they began circling and actually came up to where my kids were playing and began trying to coach them along; it took everything in me not to grab the kids and run. I stood there instead, trying to be “a presence,” so that hopefully the atmosphere of madness wouldn’t grow to envelope my boys.

Luckily, an official tournament started after that, and Sam and Gabe decided they’d had enough, so we left. “I like the other league better,” Gabe said. “There were kids there. This wasn’t as fun.” I hastily agreed with him. I’d rather make the weekly drive to avoid jumping into this particular experience again. We went to the next-door restaurant, and when the hostess heard where we’d been, she rolled her eyes.

“Yeah, they come in here after that, and they are so strange,” she said. Gabe and Sam nodded. Very unsettling way to spend a Sunday afternoon.

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An experiment

The boys are home from school today and through next week, for Spring Break. They were playing computer games, and I was drinking my coffee and feeling idly morose that forever gone are the days of Thomas the Tank Engine. These are Big Boys, you see. Gabe was waxing poetic over the game: “Don’t feel sad for me…I may not return from this mission, but I will always love you…” Sam was rolling his eyes and telling him to cut the crap and play.

I heard the garbage truck coming down the street. Suddenly, inspiration struck. “Boys! I hear the garbage truck. The garbage truck is coming!”

“WHERE? WHERE?” They ran to the window, as fast as their legs would carry them. “Can you see it? Is it here yet?” Their hands and noses pressed to the glass in anticipation.

All is right with the world, and my Big Boys are still my Little Guys.

Way back when, only yesterday...

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AUGH

The collage hanging in our stairway

Guys? This is the part where you lie to me, tell me that, no, it was just the little kid years that flew by like I was blinking, that the rest of it slows way down, that he’s going to stop morphing into a man while I’m standing here, watching it happen.

He went to “shadow” at the second hippie-dippy middle school yesterday, and I’m really going to need to come up with another nickname for it if he gets in, because that sounds like I’m not 100% on-board with the whole concept. It’s not exactly far off the mark when Eric calls me a dirty hippie, myself, so, sure, I’m down with Sam potentially calling his teachers by their first names and stopping to pet the school dog on his way down to the bathroom where they’re growing the hydroponic tomatoes. Cool with me, y’know? More importantly, cool with him. Yesterday’s visit was a particular success, since he actually got to know a couple kids by name, and he got to sit in on a comics class. No kidding. So he likes that school, I’d have to say. ;)

We’re in the waiting game now, where we’ll chew our nails and check the mail to see if his name gets picked in the lottery to attend either charter school. If not, well, he’ll go to Mega-Middle and be a good little cog. I know, I know. I’m not telling him that! I’m being all sugar and cream about the whole business, talking to him about each school’s pros and cons, and he thinks he’d probably be happy anywhere. (Mega-Middle has ROBOTICS. That soothes a lot of worries for a ten-year-old boy.) ALl the same, I heard him pray last night to get into one of the hippie schools, and darn it, I’m not a rock. That twisted my gut.

This is stupid, really. We didn’t do this when I was a kid. You lived in a neighborhood, so you went to that school. My elementary school fed to three different middle schools, and if your parents didn’t like the one you were supposed to go to, well, then, it was the Christian school for you, where they had to hold their hands folded at their waists when they walked demurely down the halls. (I had friends who went there.) There wasn’t a whole lot of anxiety involved, so far as I was aware. Maybe we have too many choices these days. Maybe if this wasn’t going on at the same time as my friends with younger kids are frantically doing the “which elementary school?” dance, which is constantly keeping it at the forefront of my brain. Gah.

In the meantime, little Gabe is obsessed with Pokemon, and that’s JUST FINE. He can stay small, and obsessed with small child things, just as long as he wants.

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Busy busy

Every day has its tasks. Today is a Wednesday, which makes it:
1) A recovery run day (did a 35-minute tempo run yesterday, which was super-fun in strong winds, but I’ll definitely deal with the wind in exchange for 45+ degrees in January!)
2) Dining room clean-up day (augh, my computer desk)
3) Church night, so therefore…
4) Simple dinner night (has to be consumed and cleaned up before we leave for church)

Trying so very, very hard to maintain a level of calm and predictability around this place, even as little complications creep in. Sam has a trip to one of the hippie-dippy middle schools tomorrow morning (and the other one next week), to shadow an older kid around the place and get a feel for things, in the ever-tense situation of “where the heck will I be next year?” Gabe is going through another bout of separation anxiety, with tears and pleas for hearts drawn on his hand before he leaves for school every morning. Swimming lessons are going, well, swimmingly for Sam, not so much for Gabe, though I may go broke on Pokemon cards, since they seem to motivate cooperation in Gabe more than anything else I’ve tried.

Sam’s officially signed up for a junior triathlon this summer. I took him with me to an expo this weekend, where he tried on a pair of little tri shorts and was immediately struck with a rip-roaring case of Quaker-level appalled modesty. Too short! Too tight! Not in public! We ran into a church friend a few minutes later, a man who does tris, and he tried to encourage Sam to “just do your thing, and nobody’s going to care what you’re wearing!” A friend of the man was there, and he offered to sell us a pair of knee-length jammers he’d bought for his grandson that hadn’t been worn; Sam seemed almost okay with that, so I agreed.

Carl, our friend, handed them off to us last night, and Sam tried them on in his room. For a moment, there was a strong sense of


…but then Gabe, watching from the side, jumped up and grabbed onto Sam’s leg. “YOU LOOK AWESOME!” he yelled. Sam decided they were fine. :mrgreen: (I’m pretty sure Gabe would be awesome to have in fitting rooms with you. Store should hire him. Reasonable rates!)

So, I hear there’s a football game this weekend. Since there are no Mountaineers or Packers involved, I’m pretty sure I couldn’t care less. You?

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What our words say about us

Apparently, sometime in the wee hours of yesterday morning, some avian creature met its demise in my backyard. Not that I’d know, of course; my personal knowledge come strictly from the news conveyed to me from my aghast and wide-eyed sons. Sam came running to the door to give me all the gory details – “No body, but feathers all over! And some patches of blood!” – and to try to get me to COME SEE. You know, as though we’d never met, and he had no clue that the only bird that freaks me out more than a live one is a messily dead one. Mmmm, no. This wasn’t a sight I needed to take in. :roll:

So we were in the car later, and Gabe started chattering about it. “And I think you need to have a body to have a real funeral, right, Mom?”

“Well, not necessarily. What if somebody drowned, and they couldn’t find the body? Their family could still have a funeral to say goodbye.”

“Okay, but Sam and [neighborhood friend] said ‘rest in peace.’ I don’t think that bird could rest in peace if it’s gone.

I muttered, apparently not quietly enough, “It’s resting in pieces…”

Sam: “MOM! That’s awful! It was just a poor defenseless bird!”

Gabe, without a pause, replied, “You don’t know it was defenseless. Maybe it just lost!



I swam today! Been waiting on my shoulder to heal properly enough to allow me to swim for a long time, and now I can do a breaststroke without more than occasional small twinges when I lose form! Still can’t do a crawl without pain, but I’m just happy to be back in the water. It brightened my whole morning.

Eric’s medical prep peaks tonight. I don’t intend to get into details, except to say that we both snorted when we read the section of the instructions that referred to me as Eric’s “responsible adult.” :lol: So, anyway, keep him in your (vague) thoughts for tonight and tomorrow. Poor guy.

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