Monday, October 27

Frustrations

Eric is gone, in Wisconsin. I'm exhausted, staying up late studying for class tomorrow, and yet I know that I'm not going to be able to sleep when I go upstairs to bed. Blame it on the fact that I slept far away from the rest of my family in an attic when I was a kid; I simply cannot sleep without the presence of another adult in the house.

(I actually was terrified as a child that there would be a fire in the house, and that everybody would escape but forget all about me, all alone in the attic. Talk about neuroses.)

Anyway. I've read myself cross-eyed; Indonesian music is simply unparalleled in dullness when it comes to written analysis - all numbers and loops and Javanese words that all look and sound alike. Ugh. I can't imagine how any of the students manage to read this chapter (why, yes, I do occasionally allow myself to become delusional) if even I'm bored to tears over it, and I actually like gamelan music. (Don't mind me; I'm aware that I'm just talking to myself at this point.)

I need to sleep. I'm not going to get to do so until Friday night, but I need it badly.

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