Sunday, June 30

I hate CSS. Yes, I know it's supposed to be really cool and all, but good grief. I imagine I would have liked it much, much more had I learned it before there was a baby crawling all over my lap and hitting keys on the keyboard...


posted by Carrie - 05:58 PM

Saturday, June 29

New entry up in the journal, with tons and tons of adorable baby pictures. (Of course, I may be a bit partial.)

posted by Carrie - 09:04 PM

Friday, June 28

He's eating a rice cake. Neither of us are dressed yet, though it's our usual routine to be so. Too darn hot. I'm in my underwear, and he's in a onesie. Rice cake decorates his front.

He nibbles on the cake as he roams about the room. Every few minutes, he makes his way to my chair, stands between my knees, and nurses for a few seconds before returning to his explorations. I'm amused by his resourcefulness, if not by his activities.

He's already turned off the computer's power strip once today, as well as breaking into the supposedly babyproofed cabinet and slamming his little fingers in the door. I'm too tired to try to predict what he'll do next. Tired physically, tired emotionally, tired mentally. Just tired. Beaten.

I need a hug, and a sincere one.

posted by Carrie - 09:17 AM

Friday Five:

When was the last time you...
1. ...sent a handwritten letter?
Um, well. Too long. Way too long. I'll send notes in with packages, but a letter all by itself? I sent one when I was pregnant to my friend Kathy (and it never reached her!), but before that it had probably been years.

2. ...baked something from scratch or made something by hand?
Last night, Honey Curry Bread. Yum.

3. ...camped in a tent?
Never done it. Never camped in anything at all, actually. I'd love to do it, but the opportunity has never arisen for me.

4. ...volunteered your time to church, school, or community?
I'm starting to feel like a real loser, here. Oh, when I worked at the library, I volunteered to run a booth at the County Fair. Not exactly a giving extravaganza these days. I've been thinking about taking Sammy to visit rest homes, since he has no elderly relatives close by and since he tends to brighten people's days. I want to call and see how that works, though; I only read a blurb about it in a magazine.

5. ...helped a stranger?
Now, I tend to do this a lot, but I honestly can't remember the last time, since I don't usually keep track. I ask people who look lost if they need directions; at the library, I help the children of frazzled mommies find the toys and books they want. I hold doors, and I let other drivers merge in front of me. I'm a regular Good Samaritan.

posted by Carrie - 07:49 AM

Thursday, June 27

Thanks, you guys, for the words of support. They mean a lot to me.

I forgot to mention what Sam did yesterday afternoon that cracked me up. He and I were eating pizza for lunch, and I had to leave the room for a second. During that time, Sam apparently decided that his toy tow truck needed to go off-roading.

When I came back in the room, he was driving the truck across the pizza, over and over. I laughed so hard, I nearly peed myself.

He's becoming quite the little stinker. The other night, Eric was "watching" him while I was upstairs folding laundry. Suddenly, I heard Eric say, "Sam? Sam!" I heard giggles close by and turned around to see a maniacally grinning face appear at the top of the (supposedly baby-gated at the bottom) stairs. He began crawling toward me as fast as he could while Eric dashed up the stairs to catch him. I guess the gate hadn't been latched completely. Extra vigilance will now be required, methinks.

posted by Carrie - 11:42 AM

Wednesday, June 26

My mother-in-law is still in need of serious prayers and good thoughts. She saw a psych on Monday, and they gave her medication, but now she's been hospitalized and seems to be totally out of her mind with delusions. Not good, especially since it seems to have really started after we left at Christmas.

Eric says he doesn't, but I can't help feeling a little guilty. I know, rationally, that it's not our fault, but we've seen my parents several times since Christmas, but not his. Eric's brother, who called to tell us about their mother, also pointed that out - not consciously trying make Eric feel guilty, says Eric, but that was certainly what seemed to be the underlying motive. Well, he's right. We are (or were, before my car accident) planning a trip to West Virginia in July, but would it even help anymore? Will she even know Sam's there?


posted by Carrie - 07:47 PM

Tuesday, June 25 I popped Sam in the stroller and took him down to the corner store for some sherbet pops. It's been ages since he's ridden in the stroller (perhaps it was even last summer), so that alone was a treat for him. I wished I had my camera for the eating of the pop, though; he was green and orange and pink drippings from head to toe, with a lovely drippy beard of melting brown. Pure bliss, I tell you.

Then we stopped at the playground on our way home for some swing fun. Way too hot for my tastes, but Sam seemed to appreciate it. It certainly made naptime an easier feat, let me say. He was knocked out in no time.

posted by Carrie - 06:27 PM

Sweet tooth acting up.

No money. No car. No ingredients. Too hot to cook, anyway.


posted by Carrie - 12:47 PM

Monday, June 24

Hee-hee! Sam's been taking two and three-step jaunts all afternoon, laughing his head off and calling "Ma-ma-ma-ma!" as he goes. I guess he's proud of himself! I know that I am.

Wow, all these firsts are enough to make a mama's head spin.

posted by Carrie - 05:57 PM

Sunday, June 23

I just can't get over how grown-up he looks. He's romping about the living room with a toy tow truck, laughing and pushing it into every corner. He looks like a true toddler, especially since, while he's playing with the truck, it's not obvious that he's not yet walking.

All at once, he looks bigger and smaller; the haircut makes him look so much older that he looks small for his age. Adding to his age is the fact that he popped through a third tooth yesterday (never thought he'd make it to his first birthday with justn the two teeth, but he did) and a fourth today. Soon, the world of apples and other crunchy foods will be opened to him!

Hey, if I wanted to freeze some bananas for him, should I peel them first? Just curious. I'm also making some orange juice popsicles that I think he'll love.

posted by Carrie - 07:53 PM

Saturday, June 22

I'm having a crisis. Oh my!

posted by Carrie - 08:29 PM

Friday, June 21

This is an interesting article about a recent finding in Sudden Infant Death Syndrome research. I hope good things come of it!

posted by Carrie - 06:11 PM

The rather ritzy neighboring housing development is having a community garage sale event today. Sam and I got up bright and early, and I popped him in his wagon to go see what there was to see. I especially hoped to find a couple of little sun hats for him, as he's outgrown his old ones.

Let me say that the development in question looks a lot closer when you're driving than when you're walking, particularly in this heat. [more]

posted by Carrie - 01:00 PM

Friday Five:

1. Do you live in a house, an apartment or a condo?
We rent a two-bedroom town house.

2. Do you rent or own?
As I said, we rent. Hate it, hate it. I feel like we're throwing money into a hole every month. I also don't like the feeling that I can't do much to personalize the place. When we get a house, the first thing I want to do is paint one of the rooms - red, I think. Someday I want a porch, too, for windchimes and a swing.

3. Does anyone else live with you?
Just me, the hubby, the baby, and the guinea pig. Oh, and a bunch of bugs; living next to farmland stinks in that respect.

4. How many times have you moved in your life?
I figure about ten times. I like to move.

5. What are your plans for this weekend?
The boy needs a haircut, so we might do that. We probably will just relax, other than that, though we could look at some cars. I just got a call from the insurance claims agent, and we should have the check soon.

posted by Carrie - 12:42 PM

Thursday, June 20

So, it's sweltering here. If I had a car, I'd have taken Sam and myself off to the swimming pool, but since I don't, it's a moot point. If I had a pump, I'd inflate our little pool anduse that, but since I don't, and since I'm not about to try to blow up the thing manually in this heat, that won't serve either.

So we play with water bottles, and we whine. Rather, Sam whines about the heat, and I whine because he's being the original Velcro-Baby and doesn't realize that sweaty skin on sweaty skin makes us both feel worse.

Ironically, the only time he hasn't been whining today was when I took him on a walk outside in his wagon. You know, in the ninety-something degree heat. Somehow, that was okay with him in a way that our darkened, air-conditioned, fanned living room isn't. Not so for Mama, so we came home after an hour and after demolishing a Freeze-Pop from the corner store. (Oh, did he love that!)

Back to the whine-stone.

posted by Carrie - 03:59 PM

Wednesday, June 19

If you pray, pray for my mother-in-law. Apparently, she is having a psychotic episode, born of a long period of serious depression. Eric's brother says that she is delusional, paranoid, incoherent, and can't be left alone; a babysitter is staying with her during the day.

She'll be getting some psychiatric care next week, though it's uncertain whether or not they'll be admitting her to the hospital. (She says that she doesn't want to be.) Eric's brother said that a visit from us may or may not help, as she may not know we're there. Regardless, Eric says we can't afford to go. He seemed pretty upset, naturally, but didn't want to talk about it.

Prayers would be greatly appreciated.

posted by Carrie - 06:00 PM

Tuesday, June 18

There are two new entries up in the journal. The first one is the one I wanted to write yesterday; the second one tells the saga of yesterday. How's that for contrast?

posted by Carrie - 01:58 PM

...and I thoroughly did intend to put up an entry last night, but I was at the hospital until late. Car crashes derail everything.

Don't worry, we're all fine, though I had to get x-rays on my neck. It still really hurts, but at least there doesn't appear to be anything horribly wrong. The car is totalled. Sam thought the whole thing was great fun and loved his ride in the ambulance.

I'll update more later. This is going to be an interesting day; Sam keeps head-butting me in all my sore places.

posted by Carrie - 08:05 AM

Monday, June 17

There will, of course, be a longer entry later, but Sam and I have to head out shortly to his very first "swimming class." Until then,

Happy Birthday, Sammy!

posted by Carrie - 11:30 AM

Friday, June 14

And we're off!

Sam had a great semi-party with his playgroup this morning. Really, it was just a normal playgroup at the park, with the addition of cupcakes and balloons. Now we're packing up the car and getting ready to head out to Pittsburgh for our family party. Sadly, Eric's family won't be able to be there, since his mom is sick again.

Anyway, have a great weekend! We'll be back sometime late Sunday.

posted by Carrie - 03:00 PM

Friday Five:

1. How often do you do laundry?
Lots. It varies, though; on weeks where Sam and I have a lot of activities, it may only get done once or twice. Other weeks, I may do six or seven loads. Diapers always get done once a week, though.

2. What's in a typical wash load?
Once a week I do diapers and wipe cloths. Beyond that, it's usually a mix of linens and clothes.

3. Front or top loader? Powder or liquid detergent?
We have a top loader, and I like it. Honestly, I have never used a front loader outside of a laundromat, so perhaps my experience is skewing my tastes. I don't see much difference between liquid and powder detergents, so we use the less expensive powder option. I like Gain, but Tide was on sale last time we shopped.

4. Do you use fabric softener in the rinse cycle?
Not usually. It ruins diaper absorption, so I generally don't use it for anything. Occasionally I'll throw some in with a load of sheets.

5. Dryer or clothesline?
Dryer, and I hate it. Our lease says I can't have a clothesline, which was almost a deal-breaker for me, but Eric overruled me. I considered hanging a clothesline in our front hallway, but gave up on the idea eventually. Darn it, I like the smell of sun-dried clothing!

posted by Carrie - 02:42 PM

Thursday, June 13

So I'm making chocolate cupcakes, and Sam decides he wants to help. He wants to watch me stir, he wants to help pour the batter into the tins. And, most especially of all, he wants to help lick the spoon.

Who am I to say no? He's the Birthday Boy!

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posted by Carrie - 04:46 PM

Since we won't be here on Sunday...

Daddy's gift
Grandpa cards

posted by Carrie - 02:18 PM

The biggest bummer about yesterday's package fiasco was that I was indeed expecting a much nicer package. When I saw the box sticking out of my mailbox, I assumed it was it. An "Oh, yay!" that turns into an "Oh, crap!" is most unkind.

But my good package arrived later in the afternoon. Yum, the second season of Buffy and the third season of Sex and the City. Happy, happy day.

posted by Carrie - 02:01 PM

Wednesday, June 12

A year ago, we received a large box of free Enfamil formula in the mail. Eric, more "righteously indignant" than myself, called the 800 number on the box to let the company know that we were a breastfeeding family and, as such, not interested in any future mailings. He told them in no uncertain terms that such mailings were a violation of the World Health Organization's code against the marketing of infant formula and that we felt that our commitment to exclusive breastfeeding was undermined by them. Any further unsolicited mailings would be construed as harrassment, he told them.

(Have I mentioned recently how proud I am of my husband?)

Today I opened my mailbox and found a large gold box addressed to Sam and me. Enclosed was a large can of Enfamil. Also included was a booklet which gave extensive advice on how to wean my baby from breastmilk onto formula; there was even a chart detailing which feedings at the breast should be replaced and when.

Eric just got off the phone again. He's livid. The customer service rep actually said, "Yes, I see in your file that you requested no more mailings, about a year ago..." That just made him madder. I told him he should write a letter, but he wants some sort of immediate response.

Coincidentally, a local news station on TV just flashed a number to call for free legal advice for the next hour. Guess what Eric's doing right now?

posted by Carrie - 07:09 PM

Tuesday, June 11

Today I did the most awful, stupid, careless thing I've ever done, and my blood still runs cold when I think about it. I accidentally locked Sam in the car with the keys next to him. In the middle of a neighboring town. In 90-plus degree weather.

I quickly ran into the little bookstore next to the car, which we had just left a minute before. The owner listened to my frantic story and let me use the phone to call a local locksmith. Then I ran back to the car and tried to keep Sam happy until help could arrive. He wasn't crying or fussy, which was a blessing; I danced for him and squirted water at his window, and he giggled at me while sweat broke out across his nose and trickled down the sides of his face. Moisture was streaming down my face, too, but it wasn't all sweat. I was acting like a clown, but getting more and more hysterical.

It was probably only five or ten minutes before the locksmith arrived, but it felt like an eternity. A fireman happened by us a few moments before the locksmith, and he watched with me while the smith easily jimmied the door open. I snatched Sam out of his seat, and he giggled as I hugged him and wiped his face. The fireman said he was okay, but probably very thirsty. He was correct; I sat down on the curb right there and nursed and nursed and nursed him.

He recovered within minutes. I may never.

posted by Carrie - 07:39 PM

I just want to say thank you guys so much for this. It really made my day, which was rather, er, eventful in and of itself, and not in good ways. I'll post about that all by itself, but I wanted to take a moment to thank you guys first!

(Though, of course, the self-deriding part of my mind is chuckling that everybody just liked the horrible junior high school picture of me in the entry in question.)

posted by Carrie - 07:24 PM

Monday, June 10

Well, I've never done it before, but since I took the weekend off, I thought I might just jump into the Participation Positive game.

- Only one more week until the community pool opens!
- Our window fan with the thermostat works like a dream
- The Kratt brothers (my shameful little fantasy duo) had capybaras - giant guinea pigs! - on the show this morning
- I managed to sling Sam on my back for a bit without him fussing
- Godiva chocolate cheesecake ice cream
- The sight of Sam with his face covered in ice cream (vanilla; the Godiva is for Mommy!)
- My mother-in-law is in the hospital, but they think they know what's wrong with her, so things are looking better
- The anticipation of Sam's face when he sees the cake, the gifts, and his family surrounding him this weekend!

posted by Carrie - 01:53 PM

Yesssssssss! Heather's back!

posted by Carrie - 01:39 PM

Hot. Sweltering. In the 90's. Sam doesn't like it, and I certainly don't like it. Eric and I were snapping and sniping at each other all yesterday, and then found that we were both running fevers; when they dropped to normal late in the evening as the temperature cooled, we attributed our foul tempers to heat exhaustion.

Sam gets so freaking sweaty, especially when he nurses or gets tired. He did it all winter long, and summer isn't promising to be any better. Ugh!

posted by Carrie - 01:34 PM

Friday, June 7

I haven't ridden a bike since before Sam was born.

We got a combination bike trailer/stroller months ago, but I had only used it as a stroller up until now. Since today is a sunny, warm day, I dragged out my bike, hooked up the trailer to it, and took the boy for a spin.

I hadn't accounted for my extremely out-of-shape legs. I hadn't accounted for the extra weight of the trailer behind me. Oh, ow.

Still, Sam liked the ride. My legs are sore, but I enjoyed it, too. Maybe I can jumpstart my weight loss if I keep this up!

posted by Carrie - 02:12 PM

TV on.
TV off.
TV on.
TV off.
TV on.

He's so proud of himself, but good grief.

posted by Carrie - 10:21 AM

Thursday, June 6

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It's South Park Carrie!

(courtesy of Mar)

posted by Carrie - 08:28 PM

I don't know which is more disturbing: the fact that somebody found my site on google searching for "lobster+cervical+mucus," or the fact that I was the number one result for that search. Eww.

posted by Carrie - 08:16 PM

Okay, I just spent way too much time chatting online, but there couldn't have been a better group of women to do it with. Nothing like good friends to make you go from feeling broke to feeling like the richest woman in the world.

I love you guys!

posted by Carrie - 06:22 PM

Wednesday, June 5

New entry up in the journal. Blech.

By the way, as part of his dinner tonight, I gave Sam a little bit of pepperjack cheese. He'd had it before and seemed to like it. Tonight, though, he must have gotten a particularly peppery bit; he began spitting and grabbing at his tongue wildly as he whimpered and stared at me with a horrified look in his eyes. Eric and I tried not to laugh (unsuccessfully, though) as I pulled him out and nursed him. Poor kid.

posted by Carrie - 08:25 PM

Sam, of course, doesn't know it, but tomorrow he's going to his very first storytime at the library. They recently started a "Mother Goose" level storytime for one-year-olds, and Sam is finally old enough to participate.

(I realize that "participate" is a very loose term to describe what these kids will be doing, but I'm excited nonetheless. Hey, it's something else to get us out of the house!)

posted by Carrie - 05:18 PM

Tuesday, June 4

$2100? For a stroller?? On sale???

Some people have too much money. If you're one of them, and you'd like to share, you could toss some my way. We sure could use it.

posted by Carrie - 02:52 PM

Congratulations are due to Jen and family for the birth of their little girl! Congratulations are also due to Ryan and family for the birth of baby Zachary! Welcome to the world, kids.

posted by Carrie - 09:48 AM

Monday, June 3

When did he get so gosh-darn big?

posted by Carrie - 12:47 PM

Sunday, June 2

By the way, I think I can now say that Sam might just possibly have all of the following words under his belt, understood and as usable vocabulary:


Not positive, but there we go. He might also have "Up-up!" but I'm even less sure about that one.

posted by Carrie - 09:08 PM

There's a new one up in the journal.

posted by Carrie - 09:06 PM

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